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xdisast__r @ 2006-07-08T00:40:00

2006-07-08T04:52:09Z

Level 1
(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) done drugs
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank alcohol
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of a parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone/something die
(x) had/have a crush on one of ur MYSPACE friends
(x) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
( ) been on a plane
(x) thrown up from drinking
(x)eaten Sushi
(x) been skiing
(x) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(x) been mosh pitting
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken pain killers
(x) love someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed/vandalized
(x) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer
(x) won a contest
(x) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x) been in a car/motorcycle accident
( ) had/have braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
() squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like you were dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sang karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under mistletoe
(x) watched the sun rise with someone you care/cared about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
( ) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed "penis" in class
(x) ate dog/cat food
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have/had a little black dress
( ) messed around in the woods
(x) messed around in a park
(x) messed around in a car
( ) had sex in your parents room.
( ) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) Sat on a roof top
( ) had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
( ) didnt take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had/been in a tree house
( ) scared to watch scary movies without sumone
(x) believed/belive in ghosts
( ) have more than 30 pairs of shoes
(x) gone streaking
( ) been in jail
(x) played chicken
(x) been pushed in a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it
( ) made a porn video
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
(x gone skinny dipping in a pool
( ) been kicked out of your house
(x) Rode a roller coaster
( ) went scuba diving/snorkeling
(x) had a cavity
(x) black mailed someone
(x) been black mailed
(X) Been used
(x) fell going up the stairs
( )licked a cat
(x) bitten someone
(x) Helped someone just to be nice
(x) Been lied to by boyfriend/grirlfriend/spouse

xdisast__r @ 2006-05-13T10:05:00

2006-05-13T14:05:49Z

My doctor put me on Prozak.
I feel insane right now, and also very sick.

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xdisast__r @ 2006-05-05T22:12:00

2006-05-06T02:13:14Z

I miss you so fucking much.

xdisast__r @ 2006-05-03T11:12:00

2006-05-03T15:19:58Z

I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends, someday

I'm home "sick". I'm not exactly sick but I don't think my brain would be able to funtion properly while at school, so what's the point? Plus I don't have my english work anywhere near done, and I don't want to deal with teachers. I am kind of starting to enjoy school though, during second we go outside everday since we're doing a unit on weather, lunch I get sweet and then the afternoon is a breeze. I love it. I keep thinking of certain things and my stomach ties in knots and it's horrible.

Anyways, so I'm not dead, I just don't have much to update on since I don't do anything ever.

xdisast__r @ 2006-04-29T21:02:00

2006-04-30T01:03:02Z

I fucking hate weekends.

xdisast__r @ 2006-04-28T22:29:00

2006-04-29T02:41:13Z

I wish disappearing weren't so hard to do. I wish I didn't feel empty. I wish I still felt as though I had the people I always thought I would have. I wish school would be over now so I can sleep every second of my life. One time I said I wish everyone could feel like this..now I wish the complete opposite. I don't want anyone to feel like they don't have anybody to turn to when they need someone. I'm really good at being an idiot.

xdisast__r @ 2006-03-11T11:03:00

2006-03-11T16:05:26Z

So i've been sick for a week, and I think i'm finally getting better thank fucking god. I thought I was dying it was horrible. I just need to get all my energy back because all I've been doing is sleeping. Yesterday I ate for the first time in five days and I friggen choose to eat ice cream then all night I felt like I was going to barf and then I did at like four am and I felt better haha. It's march break. party.

xdisast__r @ 2006-02-27T16:45:00

2006-02-27T21:49:59Z

This weekend was really good, but I'm not going to write a lot because I have a really bad headache right now. Also, I'm excited for Jose and Rogers birthday show this Friday, I miss everyone.

xdisast__r @ 2006-02-26T23:31:00

2006-02-27T04:31:39Z

I wish everyone could feel like this..
it's so amazing.

Such a good weekend.

xdisast__r @ 2006-02-26T11:07:00

2006-02-26T16:08:16Z

Bad feelings.

xdisast__r @ 2006-02-24T19:00:00

2006-02-25T00:01:53Z

-Got another detention today, for saying "shit load" like come on, who cares?!
-Bought a sweater that was a lot nicer when I tried it on (I hate that)
-Seeing Jordan tonight:)
-Hoping to see Kellie and Jules
-I'm rank

fourteen to three

2006-02-19T20:50:12Z

I just read something that made me realizes that me acting like a panzy this past month or so was extremely useless. I'm happier than I ever have been; I'm doing well in school and getting all my work done, plus I enjoy most of my classes, I have an amazing best friend and an amazing boyfriend, and I'm even getting along with my mom. I know this was pointless, but whatever, I'm finally happy again.

xdisast__r @ 2006-02-19T10:23:00

2006-02-19T15:34:45Z

Hmm I feel a lot better about everything now. Friday night I got drunk with Alanna and ended up barfing for like twelve hours, it was brutal. I woke up at five a.m. with hair clips and a bandana holding my hair back and a bucket in my arms, it was funny. Then I re woke up at eight and felt like I was going to vomit all over the bed. Uggh. Jordan came over Saturday. Today, Sunday, I'm going to be really productive and get a lot done, but I say that and I obviously wont. Oh well.

I'm attractive.

xdisast__r @ 2006-02-16T18:24:00

2006-02-16T23:28:58Z

My livejournal is a fuck up. I wish my memory wasn't so bad because then I could tell you what has been going on. I also wish I hadn't just hit my knee off the computer desk because fuck it hurts and so does my uterus and fuckfuckfuck. This week..what the hell have I done this week..Monday I went to Jordan's, Tuesday Jordan came to my house, Wednesday was a half day so Lauren and I went to the mall and it was horrible and boring and I hate the mall. Alanna came over that evening, and look at that there's my week all summed up. School today went by really fast and it was easy and I made a new friend in tech he's pretty funny. My dad picked me up from school and now I'm waiting for Jordan. Wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww I'm sweet.

cliche

2006-02-14T04:26:40Z

I hate myself

thumbs up!

xdisast__r @ 2006-02-13T07:30:00

2006-02-13T12:32:26Z

I love my rat.
I miss my boyfriend.
I reeeally fucking hate school.

xdisast__r @ 2006-02-12T12:43:00

2006-02-12T17:43:37Z

People are fucked.
Mind your own fucking buisness.

xdisast__r @ 2006-02-07T21:10:00

2006-02-08T02:13:29Z

Today I had a dream, I'm not going to get into detail, but Jordan shaved his head and then he somehow turned mentally challenged, and I watched it all on a tv.

IT WAS WEEEEEEIRD

xdisast__r @ 2006-01-09T21:46:00

2006-01-10T02:59:19Z

Here's to another shitty two weeks, and another week of even shittier shittiness! (Week 1&2=working hard on working hard, week 3=studying for exams) But, really though, my mom is mental and my social life is going down the drain for the next few weeks..unless I like, come home and do my homework right away everyday. I guess doing your school work really does pay off in the end because now I have shitloads to do and I'm so fucked up.

School today went by surprisingly fast which was a bonus, and I came home and Jordan helped me with my math(but actually just told me the answers) which was wonderful because I didn't have to spend all night trying to figure it out by myself. I want it to be spring so I can lay in the grass because that's a good feeling.

Where I am in life right now is better than it has been in a loooooong time, I know I say it too much, but it's actually the best feeling ever and I just can't get enough of it.
I need to go thrifting, and I need to clean my room and sort my shit out.

Also, I have a doctors appointment tomorrow or Wednesday and I'm nervous the doctor is going to try and give me a booster shot because he likes to do that sometimes.

Also also, fuck you mom.

xdisast__r @ 2006-01-08T20:57:00

2006-01-09T01:59:34Z

I wish I didn't forgive people so easily, because it just makes them think it's alright to be stupid to me still. I'm still angry about some stuff but of course I'm retarded and wont act like I am or say anything about it. Days that I'm not with Jordan(which don't come often) always suck so much and take so long to finish. I haven't even talked to him since early this morning and it seems like so much longer. ugh gughughguhg

xdisast__r @ 2006-01-08T15:46:00

2006-01-08T20:57:45Z

I always feel like I have so much to say but once I get here it never comes out. That's my problem and it always has been my problem. Even when I'm not on the internet I'm like that. I think I'm going to start making all of my journals non-commentable..I don't know why though.
School starts again tomorrow. My mom is going mental about my 29% math mark and she really wants me to get it up so she just nags on and on about it which I don't understand because there is absolutley no way I can get my mark up 20% in less than a month. So boo to school but mostly boo to math, all though I am excited to be with Alanna everyday again.

I love Minus the bear and I love sleeping and I love my ipod a lot. I also love Jordan and I'm glad I have him in my life because he makes everything so much better and when I'm with him everything is just so good. My whole family just randomly started showing up at my house and apparently everyone is eating here so I'm going to stop rambling about gay stuff that no one will even read, but that's okay because i'm making this entry non-commentable anyways. I should probably go brush my teeth too.

xdisast__r @ 2005-12-31T00:41:00

2005-12-31T05:41:21Z

wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

xdisast__r @ 2005-12-27T01:04:00

2005-12-27T06:13:28Z

Merry boxing day.

For Christmas I got
-an Ipod nano
-a cell phone
-two hundred dollars
-clothes
-makeup
-dvds
-cds
-pajamas
-scarfs and mittens

Boxing day shopping is ridiculous.
I didn't even buy anything because I didn't want to go in any stores.

xdisast__r @ 2005-12-18T00:49:00

2005-12-18T05:49:16Z

I can say I love you

xdisast__r @ 2005-12-11T13:05:00

2005-12-11T18:09:33Z

Didn't do much yesterday. Jordan came over for a bit, ordered pizza, rented a movie, Alanna came over and hung out but she was mostly downstairs, Jordan left at 12ish, and Alanna and I went to sleep. But it was a good night.
Boys Night Out is tonight and I don't want to go aloneeeeeeee. :(